Tall Tara

dealing with hecklers since 1989

My messy mission statement

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I was talking to a friend about my return to the stage and some of the fears I had. She suggested I write down why I wanted to get back up there. Without worrying about how it would sound, I scribbled my reasons for wanting to try stand-up comedy again. My hope is that perhaps, by making the list public, it will serve as a reminder of why I’m subjecting myself to the torture of trying to make strangers laugh. Again.

  • the fear of not being funny
  • the challenge of writing new material
  • a creative exploration into who I am
  • the dedication and energy needed to pull it off
  • the chance to employ some old-school improv skills
  • to take the risk and put myself out there
  • to feel the rush of adrenaline when there are laughs
  • to help my writing
  • blog content
  • meet new people in the community
  • to find out about other creative opportunities
  • shine up that stage presence
  • the mic, bitch

It’s happening soon. Excuse me while I go work on some new material.

Photo credit: Gratzer via Flickr

Week 2 of Project 366

I’m a little behind in posting these, but wanted to make sure to get them up. There were some good things that happened this week. Any time you win a free lunch…come on…

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I won a free veggie burger at Mustard’s Last Stand. Love the food and the nice guys that work there.

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This is the downtown branch of the public library. The Boulder Creek path is right in front of it and every time I see those blue dots, I think of what it’ll be like when the 100-year flood comes through town.

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Boulder is the one of the bike-friendliest towns I’ve ever lived.

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A crisp Friday night, early in the evening.

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The end of Brooke’s birthday potluck and proof that it was delicious.

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Nic and some rocks

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I didn’t have a shot of my new bangs and was bored at the office on Monday. After looking at this picture some more, I love that it looks like I have two giant monitors growing out of both sides of my head.

This photography project is shaping up to be much harder than I thought it would be. But I like that I’m sticking with it, even when it gets challenging. A great exercise in discipline and finishing something you’ve started, even when you may not want to.

Burdens of being a bangable blog babe…

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Yep. That’s me. I’m the number five most bangable blog babe for the month of January. This list is maintained by one Maddog, a self-described lifelong learner and pick-up artist extraordinaire. I’ve had some time to reflect on the “honor” that has been bestowed upon me and have decided to follow the advice that Maddog left in a comment on my other blog. I am going to wear my crown with pride!

To be completely honest, when I first saw the post , I felt a little dirty. There was a small foul-smelling wave of disgust that washed over me. But that didn’t last long because my comedic timing, also known as my onstage survival instinct, kicked in and I began to think of the joke potential that was just handed to me on a shiny blogspot platter. This was a gift.

Some of the funny one-liners that came about as a result of my inclusion on this list:

  • “Too bad you have to wait eleven more months to find out if you’re the most bangable blog babe of 2008.”…a friend from high school
  • “You totally could have been #4!”…my co-worker Daniel
  • “This is what you get when you’re a girl on the Internet.”…Derek, another co-worker
  • “I’m so proud of you and disappointed in humanity.”…my supportive boyfriend
  • “Why didn’t he install the wijit?”…too many people
  • “Check one of my goals for 2008 off the list.”…me

Part of the beauty of The Most Bangable Blog Babes list is that it’s the perfect compliment/insult*. Am I offended or do I laugh? It’s really hard not to laugh when you start reading the pathetic lines that he assigns each girl. And yet, to give Maddog some credit, at least he’s honest. He’s not pretending to be interested in my blogging abilities or my mental talents. Just my oral ones. Ha.

Veronica Belmont** may be a sexy geek, but I’m a bangable blog babe. It’s 2008 and I’m okay with that. To answer the title of the post, I haven’t really encountered any burdens associated with my honor. Except that I have to look bangable all the time. Fortunately Maddog is picking five new blog hotties to feature in a few weeks, which means that I can go back to being merely cute and dorky.

*Another good compliment/insult…”Those bangs make your face look thinner!”

**My new bangs may have been slightly influenced by her.

Week 1 of Project 366

As promised, here are the shots from the first week of my creative undertaking, Project 366. It’s amazing how much taking a picture a day and looking for shots has already helped to increase my awareness. I especially love that more than half of the pictures I took feature snow. Some big events have taken place in 2008, including a ribbon-cutting,

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and a hair-cutting.
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I took many snowy walks, attended my first Bat Mitzvah…
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and drank a lot of coffee.

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2008 is shaping up to be a good one. While I like what I’ve done so far, I can see where this might get challenging.

Mountaineering my first post…

As I begin this new year and blog, I wanted to start things off by looking back to a trip I took up the mountain. Early in fall, I successfully summitted Mt. Huron, a 14,000 foot peak located twenty miles outside of Leadville, Colorado. I got to the top but not without some struggles. When reflecting on the lessons learned, there were some ideas that stood out as being important for making it up the mountain and, really, for achieving any goal.

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You talkin’ to me?

My mind can be a tricky one. It likes to tell me that I’m not physically or mentally capable enough to do something. (I know, I know… your mind doesn’t do such devious and self-defeating things!) While normally ignored at lower elevations, something about the lack of oxygen on the mountain amplifies this small voice and makes it much more convincing. This is when I rely on a combination of methods to help me deafen that mind-noise of negative thinking. Part of me simply ignores the bad stuff while another part of me begins to remember the numerous times that I’ve pushed myself and succeeded. Doing these in equal parts along with a sprinkling of cheesy theme music and I’m suddenly making the choice to not listen to that voice.

Now, you…you are talking to me

Massage school taught me how to listen to my body. Before that, I’d ignore the pain I felt, the tightness of certain muscles and the knots that indicated more than tension. But the thing is, once you start listening to what your body has to say, it’s hard to stop. On the way up the summit, my lungs were telling me that they wanted more oxygen while my legs were letting me know they didn’t appreciate the steepness of the trail. By tuning in to these messages, it became easier to figure out how I was really doing. As the sum of many parts working together, I like to listen to my body because it always has something important to say.

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Repeat as needed

Breathe. Looking back on every physical challenge that I’ve undertaken, from running a marathon to backpacking 500 miles, remembering to breathe has been critical in my successful handling of difficult situations. When you’re above 13,000 feet, the air is much thinner and there is not much to be had. If you forget to breathe, you start feeling dizzy right away. It sounds silly, but with that kind of instant physical and mental feedback, you have no choice but to breathe as much as you can.

Ain’t nothing too small to celebrate

At about 13,500 feet, I started hitting my wall. I wasn’t feeling well but could see the summit. Adam suggested taking a short break to drink some water. As I sat down, he pulled a Payday candy bar out of his pack. The angels started singing and suddenly I felt like maybe, just maybe, I was going to make it. While I hadn’t made it to the summit yet, celebrating the achievement of making it that far helped me to muster the strength to get to the top.

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Wear a skirt

Make it fun. Dress it up. Put yourself in something that makes you feel like kickin’ ass. Whatever the challenge, having your superhero outfit on (metaphorically or literally) helps you to play the part. I wore a dress up the mountain because I loved how I felt in that dress. The wind between my legs was exhilarating and motivating as I hiked the trail in my summit skirt. When you feel good about what you’re wearing, you can accomplish anything. Just because I hike with boys doesn’t mean I have to look like one. (I’m a big fan of the local company, SkirtSports, that makes an awesome line of functional and funky fitness skirts. This was the same dress that I wore to run the Denver half-marathon!)

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With a little help

The support system that you surround yourself with is critical. Not only will they show you where to go but they will also point out the best way of getting there and help if needed. With extreme physical challenges, your support crew is of utmost importance. You want to have people around that you trust, like and can still deal with if frustrations run high. Friends and strangers alike helped me to summit Mt. Huron, reminding me along the way to take it one step at a time. After we got off the mountain, the celebratory beer tasted even better with the knowledge that we had bagged the summit together.

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All of the above lessons are ones that resonated with me as I tried to put some meaningful thought into what I want this online space to be. As a mission statement/clarification of purpose, talltara will be a place to document my offline adventures, whatever they may be, and to experiment creatively, whatever that might mean. Some of my initial goals…

In 2008, I’m returning to the stage to indulge my stand-up tendencies. I thought it would be interesting to share tales of my comedy journey and stories from the stage.

On the photographic front, I’m participating in Project 365, which involves taking a picture a day for all of 2008. I’ll be showcasing my daily photos here but will be continue posting other pics on Flickr.

Other topics I’m interested in pursuing and playing with…backpacking trips, triathlon training, sustainable design, community building, learning to juggle, conscious consumerism, and whatever new projects/obsessions/passions happen to cross my path.

Thanks for joining me and my work in progress. And a super big thanks to James Carrington for the pictures and to the Remabulous Caroline Donahue, for a much-needed creative kick in the pants.